Connecting Relationships

Today I had the chance to talk with a old roommate. There is a slight rivalry there with the fact that both of us are in the design industry and both talented (all though I believe he is more talented than I) But it was really nice. I don't get to just talk about industry to many people. Most don't understand or can just "get it". This week will kill me if I'm not careful. Deadlines, Deadlines, Deadlines....rrrr.

Confusion

I think I've done a good job confusing myself last night. It's been along time since I've let someone back into my life like that. It was exciting and scary all at the same time. I woke up this morning with this feeling of "What the hell did you do?" What were you thinking?" Quite possibly this was one of the more emotionally driven dumbass things that I have done. This person hurt me pretty bad and I've forgiven them and now it's just so confusing. I don't want to return to that person that I was. I was angry because I knew they were someone that I couldn't have. But I just couldn't help but make myself vonerable to them again... I think I just have to keep in mind the appropriate level of friendship for us and where to draw the line mentally in the sand.

So many feelings all at once. The things I would have done had the opportunity presented themselves. The sheer lust in my heart. So confusing.

Here's the First one

So Here we are. I'm not really sure what I'm doing here. Maybe I've succummbed to the pressures of everyone and their brother with one of these. But who knows. right now I'm still getting used to this whole thing. This whole concept of blogging. I haven't made heads or tails of it yet. I'm sitting here on my bed. Wondering what's going on. Where am I going. What do I want to do? I see what tomorrow brings.