Confusion

I think I've done a good job confusing myself last night. It's been along time since I've let someone back into my life like that. It was exciting and scary all at the same time. I woke up this morning with this feeling of "What the hell did you do?" What were you thinking?" Quite possibly this was one of the more emotionally driven dumbass things that I have done. This person hurt me pretty bad and I've forgiven them and now it's just so confusing. I don't want to return to that person that I was. I was angry because I knew they were someone that I couldn't have. But I just couldn't help but make myself vonerable to them again... I think I just have to keep in mind the appropriate level of friendship for us and where to draw the line mentally in the sand.

So many feelings all at once. The things I would have done had the opportunity presented themselves. The sheer lust in my heart. So confusing.